Wander"lost"

As I sit here and write this I'm less than a week away from starting my senior year of college.

Excited I should be.

Lost, I am.

I've concluded that in life, there are multiple feelings and types of "lost". The "lost" we feel when we're in a new land, the "lost" we feel after a loved one moves on, and this type of "lost".

The "lost" of having our plan shatter unkindly through our grasp.

I'm uncertain on which "lost" is the most uncomfortable or which one leaves us most sore, but I know that the feeling of being "lost" in any form can leave a venomous taste in our spirit.

Although being lost is not the plan I had in mind, it has made me wonder, and has led me to be a wanderer (in which my soul needed with its entirety).

Wanderlust is a strong desire to travel

Wander"lost" is a strong desire to feel lost - it may have not been the strong desire we asked for, but the strong desire we needed and simply did not know we needed

In school, I've never been one to fit the mold, but I've been one to try.

I had decided to play it safe. I knew if I could just pass in math and science, there were jobs that these two subjects revolved around. Little did I know, writing, and music, and the arts was maybe where I truly belonged. Not everybody sees the world with a spark of color and not everybody appreciates music and creativity in a sense that some right- side brain people like myself do (Left-side brain people, you all amaze me, really, you do). I'm not saying the mold to fit is that within math and science, but with our nation, we make this a main focus in our school systems often suppressing the other subjects. Science and math have never been my forte, so why did I even try to major in a career where those two subjects were the main focus?

1) Stubbornness

2) Going after your actual dream is a risk and is it worth taking?

After watching ample amounts of Ted Talks on the topics of inspirations and goals and dreaming and why dogs love humans, I think the answer to number two is... yes,but beware not all dreams are going to be achievable.

You must ask yourself this question (no matter what age you are, no matter what stage of life you are encountering):

What is your dream?

Take time to really clamp down on what this dream is going to be for you, and try to make it an achievable dream (but if you want to dream about marrying a prince in a foreign place, be my guest, it's your dream). With this dream in your mindset, make a list of your strengths and your weaknesses. It is vital you know what awakens your soul and brings a storm filled with lighting and thunder of courage , but it is also vital to know what darknesses dwell there, as these will help you too.

In a sense our dreams can be our goals in life.

Remember that typically our fear of failure is what is going to hold us back from achieving our dreams or goals in life.

And what's some advice for overcoming fear?

Jump out of a perfectly fine operating airplane and free-fall to the ground for approximately 5000 feet, then parachute the rest of the way down... it's called skydiving (just something to look into). Once you do that, you can really conquer any fear.

My friend Breanna and I after skydiving (strangely enough, one of the calmest experiences I have had in my life).